Working From Home

Has got to be my favorite office perk. Look at this! And not seen here is my favorite person to share meals with. Maaalibadbaran nga lang siya kasi nagtapos ang sentence na iyon with a preposition. Boohooo! Haha.

Majestic Bangkok (1)

I don't know how and where to start. But yeah, I had to go to Bangkok. I don't like traveling for business. Hate it. But I love interacting with my surroundings and appreciating beauty through any camera, even a phone camera. So here are some of the photos from Bangkok. More soon...

Sun and Moon! God was saying "I love you" to me here.

So many temples. This one may be what they call a "monk station."

Lotus in the temple

Kawawang Barya

Sa tingin ko, may sakit sa pag-iisip ang mga bumababoy sa pera. At saka mga duwag. Tingnan ang dinanas ng sampung pisong barya sa ibaba. Ano yan, pininturahan? Sarap saktan ng may gawa nito.

Before (babuyin)

After (babuyin)

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Wedding Is Off

Everybody wants or strives to be smart, practical, progressive and, for lack of a better and contemporary term, cool. But we all have a few things we keep very close to our hearts that just don't fit into these descriptions. A thought, a favorite band, a song, some quirky guilty pleasure known to no one or only a few trusted loved ones. It could be anything. Being a bride in a romantic wedding is one of mine.

It is a manic obsession. It is a dream with vivid specifications. I cannot remember how or when it started. Maybe Disney movies triggered it. I just knew in senior high school that I wanted a special wedding when I'm 26. I knew that I wanted poetry for gospel. I knew the songs I wanted. I have created a million playlists for my wedding march options and the entire big event. I knew how i wanted my hair done. I knew about the best cut for my wedding gown. I knew how to group the guests in tables. I knew that there will be cameras in each table fto capture every perspective and angle of the special day. At one point, I knew I wanted to wear Chucks. Too bad that a lot of things I knew have been used in other people's weddings. I should have gotten a patent for everything. I would have made a fortune from these.

I knew. 

I'm turning 35 in a few months. It's been 9 years since the target date. Because of circumstances, none of which are within my control, everything that I knew are just things I knew.

I realized today that it is never going to happen. Maybe "realized" is not even the right word. Maybe "accepted" is more apt. 

I did the math. My rules say that this dream expires when I'm 39. Just because. That's non-negotiable. So I have 4 years to wait but we will not have the money for a wedding  in 4 years. We want our own home and it will definitely not sit well with me if we spent money on my wedding instead. It is not just right.

Today is the day I say goodbye to the dream and say hello to a lifetime of tears and bitterness when I see, feel or hear anything close to weddings and all its glory. But hey, don't we all have something that makes us bleed uncontrollably every single time that we remember what it was like? It is painfully normal.

Everybody wants or strives to be smart, practical, progressive and, for lack of a better and contemporary term, cool. But we all have a few things we keep very close to our hearts that just don't fit into these descriptions.

I am YummyliciousLady. I was never, and will never be, a blushing bride.