Nuffnang

Tuesday, February 07, 2017

My Sister Needs Help


My sister set this up in GoGetFunding today. My brother-in-law was diagnosed of stage 3 cancer yesterday and we need all the help and kindness in the world to support his recovery. I know I only have 12 seasonal readers but if you can spread the word, the 12 may become 12,000 by the sheer power of faith.

===

Help Us Grow Old Together


We were highschool sweethearts. At 17, we ran away together but ended up coming back home because we couldn't make it out there. Fast forward some more years. We are now husband and wife and parents to two beautiful cats and one rowdy dog. We got our first car last year and got the key to our new home.

Today, we confirmed that Cezar has cancer.

We're still waiting for the specifics but our ENT surgeon said biopsy confirmed the mass under his right eye is malignant, we just don't know what type of cancer yet.

We have already sold our house and loaned a large amount from my husband's employer. The car will have to go soon, too. We have worked hard all these years to be independent and to at least invest our money where it wouldn't waste away with the years. Now, whatever we have left, we are still in the process of letting go to be able to raise funds for his treatment.

His last surgery was done to at least rid him of some of the pain that the mass is causing him (cancer is making his teeth loose and causing a lot of pain). It was tagged as a dental procedure and HMO covered nothing. With a cancer diagnosis his HMO will cover everything but his maximum benefit limit will not even be enough to pay for the surgeon's professional fee.

Cezar will need a maxillectomy where the doctors will remove a large part of his upper right jaw bone and possibly his right eye. Depending on how successful the operation will be, he would have to undergo radiation and chemotherapy.

Cezar is the love of my life. When we got married, we promised each other forever. We said we'd stay together until we're both old and gray. We are still dreaming of having kids someday and I hope we can keep our promise of growing old together to each other.

I'm asking for your help so we can have Cezar's surgery scheduled as soon as possible. I am also asking you to please remember us the next time you pray.

For the past 14 years, Cezar has been my rock and he has taken care of me like no one ever has. I intend to return the favor and make sure that he's taken care of.

We would be eternally grateful for any help you may be able to extend our way.

Please help us fight for his life. Please help us fight for our love. Please say a little prayer for us and our families as we go through this difficult time.

Friday, February 03, 2017

[January 2017] Imelda Marcos: The Verdict

Thank you for the reminders and harrowing details, Mrs. Pedrosa.


Imelda Marcos: The Verdict
by Carmen Navarro Pedrosa

Sunday, January 22, 2017

Decisions, Decisions, Lagi na lang!

Sa bawat segundo ng buhay ko, lagi na lang akong kailangang gumawa ng desisyon. I'm sure kayo rin naman. Ang kaibahan lang natin, blog ko ito kaya ako ang nagkukuwento. And you will read on and on and on because I said so. Harhar! Peace tayo, biro lang. Basahin mo please. I write for the betterment of my self esteem and this is all that I have. Maawa ka na, wag mo akong iwan. Charot!

Hemingways, nagdesisyon akong mag-me time sa newest favorite spot ko kanina. Pampabawas negatrons sa sistema, pang-refresh, pampakalma, pang-renew ng faith sa kabutihan at sangkatauhan. Pero kailangan ko na umuwi at mag-impake dahil maaga ang biyahe bukas para sa isang work-related, offsite, three-day event. E umulan. Ayan, sinasabi ko na nga bang hindi dapat mawalay sa akin ang higanteng knapsack ko e. Wala tuloy akong payong. Kasalanan ko kasi pinanaig ko ang kapekpekan kanina para magmukhang presentable. Ang dala ko tuloy na bag ay isang maliit na woman human bag. Seriously ladies, how do you survive?

So ito ang itsura ng utak ko habang nagmumuni-muni. Director's cut ang flow na ito, hindi ako nage-edit. Hindi ko pa alam sa paragraph na ito kung ano ang gagawin ko.

-Kailangan ko na umuwi pero hindi puwedeng mabasa ang bago kong sapatos na compliant
sa dress code ng conference. Ay, thank you pala sa boss ko na pinagtiyagaan akong i-coach sa definition ng resort chic.

-Puwede kong iplastic ang paa ko at maglakad sa ulan pero wala akong payong, mababasa ang mga gamit ko. Kaso, san naman ako kukuha ng plastic bags sa ganitong oras?

-Puwede ako bumili ng payong pero kulang ang pera ko. May ATM across the street pero basa na rin ako bago pa makarating. Bakit pa ako gagastos ng P200?

-Puwede ako magpasundo kay Sir_Ko pero may sakit siya. Hindi siya puwedeng maulanan at malamigan.

-"Heto akoooo, basang basa sa ulan, walang masisilungan, walang makakapitan."

-Dito na lang ako. Mauubos din naman ang ulan. Babae nga, natutuyo. Langit pa. Langit lang yan!

-Joke lang Baby Jeezas. I didn't mean to insult your home. Pero ano nga kayang depresyon ang pagdadaanan ko pag natuyo na ako at nag-menopause? Think positive! Sisikat na ako gaya ni Madonna by then. Makakasulat din ako ng libro.

-Pero paano nga ako uuwi?

-Dapat talaga meron akong kotse. Yung kulay violet. Eh san naman ako kukuha ng pambili?

-Bakit ba ako nagtatrabaho kung di ako makabili ng payong at kotse.

-Sabagay ayus lang. Di naman ako marunong mag-drive. I have a strong feeling, hindi ako matututo niyan.

-"Buhos na ulan, aking mundo'y lunuring tuluyan."

-Masarap siguro kumain ng Andok's habang naliligo sa ulan. Yung hindi chopped, yung buong manok ang hawak ko tapos lakad lang ako nang lakad. Kaso acid rain na ang ulan ngayon, baka ikamatay ko pag humalo ang ulan sa manok na binabanatan ko.

-Kailan kaya ako mamamatay? Erase, erase, di puwede yan!

-Ayoko na isipin. Dito na lang ako.

-Ultimatum. Pag 2am na at umuulan pa rin, susugurin ko na. Basa kung basa!

-Pero sayang talaga ang P300 na pinambili ng sapatos. Kulay red pa naman.



Will you marry me?

Naka-jackpot ako na maimbitihan sa isang bonggang bonggang wedding proposal. First time ko makanood ng ganito sa totoong buhay, ang ganda, ganda, ganda! Sana iniimbitahan din ako ng mga artista para hindi na ako napapagod manood sa YouTube.

Gusto ko ang song selection. Pagpasok ng beautiful bride-to-be, ang kanta ay "Saving Forever For You" ni Shanice. Hindi Pempengco, Shanice lang, walang apelyido. May AVP ng mga pictures nila ni boyfie niya through the years. Pagkatapos ng AVP, may kumakanta naman ng live ng "Panalangin." Ukelele ang gamit ni Ate at medyo nanghinayang ako na gitara ang kinakarir ko. Parang mas mabilis ang progreso ng maliliit na kamay sa ukelele kaysa sa gitara. Anyways, sa gitna ng kanta ang speech at luhuran portion ng groom-to-be. Lakas makaluha ng ganitong eksena. Hangswit!!! Tapos, nung masungkit na ang matamis na oo ay "Nothing's Gonna Stop Us Now" naman.

Manghang mangha rin ako sa set up ng lugar. May pathway na puro bulaklak sa entrance. Tapos isang pathway pa ulit na puro kandila, rose petals sa sahig, at roses naman papunta sa isang table. May magandang kuwento tungkol sa table. Noong araw daw kasi na magkaibigan pa lang ang couple na ito, randomly tinanong ni girl kung iimbitahan ba siya pag kinasal si guy. Ang sagot ni guy, "oo naman, gusto mo table #2 ka pa." Kaya ang table na sentro ng gabing ito ay may label na table #2. Imbitado nga naman siya sa kasal, siya pa ang bride. Boom!

Ang isa pang kuwento na nakaantig sa mommy heart ko naman ay ito: mommy ni guy ang nag-ayos ng lugar. Concept niya lahat ng romantic details kaya ang kuwento ng daddy ng groom-to-be ay bigla siyang nasingil tuloy at natanong na "bakit nung tayo walang ganito?"

Dahil diyan nagkaron ako ng bagong pangarap. Pag si TNLO ang nagpropose balang araw, ibubuhos ko ang isandaang porsiyento ng lakas ko para sa concepts at designs. Yihaaa!!!

Finally, bet ko ang pagkakatanong ni guy. Hindi, will you marry me. Hindi rin, let's get married. Ang tanong ay nakakakilabot. Will you give me the honor of calling you my wife? Or something. Medyo di ko na narinig lahat kasi hinihigit ko ang tonsil ko para di pumalahaw ng iyak.

Days before today, sinasabihan ko lagi si guy na "you have to do this right!!!" And boy, he delivered. Sabi nga ng soon-to-be-wife ay perfect and beyond everything ang experience.

Best wishes sa kanila. Invited din daw kami sa wedding kaya magda-diet na ako. Ang ganda ng mga angkan nila. Nakakahiyang maging thorn among the roses, na siguradong babaha sa kanilang wedding day.

Wednesday, January 18, 2017

It's a sunny day

"... but the fool on the hill
Sees the sun going down
And the eyes in his head
See the world spinning round"


Tuesday, January 17, 2017

Sweet, Sour and Salty

The theme of my womanhood in 2016 was, and continues to be, "disliking my evolution." And it's anchored on my feeling of alienation from the "me" that my husband liked in the late 90s. And how the new woman-mom, I feel, has not been able to cope with the hyper-development of my former boyfriend.

I am threatened by the nagging feeling that I am no longer the interesting, angst-ridden, opinionated, well-read, news junkie, who had a lot of things to say about politics and feminism.

I don't know how or why, but I've always felt that it's my brand of crazy that caught his fancy. I try, and try, and try. But I really don't feel any special connection with the stock market, or backpacking in Europe, or reading the news (anymore). Ang hirap magpa-charming. Tapos ang dami dami ko pang character flaws.

So everyday I am just thankful that I, would love to think, have not yet been replaced. I know, that's such an anti-women thing to say but it's how I really feel. I am so blessed to have married the love of my life. Huwag lang sanang ma-bore sa akin nang bonggang bongga habang kinakapa ko pa kung paano mahalin itong matander na version ko.

Happy 8th, my love. Pramis, maliligo na ako lagi kahit walang pasok para di ako amoy kabiguan.

Monday, January 16, 2017

Eh Bye FB and IG ulit

Actually, ilang araw na rin. Pagkakadalubhasaan ko muna ulit ang simpleng buhay. Mag-gardening muna ako, chareeeng!