Word Count: 596 (title excluded)
I got pregnant.
Totally unplanned and unexpected. I had to apologize to the
NLO (New Little One) after I recovered from almost a month of
shock-disbelief-depression.
TLO (The Little One), the eldest, is a special needs child. Genetics
is the most likely culprit and so I was (and yes, I still am) scared that the NLO
may have the same syndrome and/or birth defects too. Can we support two special
needs children financially and emotionally?? I’m not a very optimistic person
so words of encouragement don't really help (most of the time). Gregor Mendel won every argument inside
my head. But for some reason, praying really helped. The great thing about
abstract concepts, like God, or faith, or miracles, is that once fortified with
the right timing and circumstances, they become bigger than life – so big that
they are able to beget life. I still don’t have any answers for the great
what-if’s but through prayers and meditation, I’ve been able to afford
excitement.
Real concerns aside, there were reel concerns too. I wanted
to be pursued for the NLO – just like in the movies with hubbies being extra
sweet, giving flowers, writing letters, showing goo-goo eyes to fertilize. Due
to circumstances, mostly none were within my control, the first child was the
story of me pushing and prodding for happy endings. I know, big yuck from the left-brained
population. I wanted the second to be asked of me. So when NLO came out of
nowhere, it felt like I lost something. But what can you do? A baby is a baby
is a baby. At least I’m no Juno.
I got a new job.
It came with two supportive team mates and two super bosses,
a laptop, a new phone with unlimited postpaid data plan, a new workstation
(priceless in our industry) and, if schedules/tasks permit, work-from-home
privileges.
I've learned that the best career decisions are not based on
career considerations. The best career decisions are anchored on pursuits and
aspirations for one’s personal life. With all honesty and humility, I needed a
job that will give me ample time, cerebral and emotional space to be a mother.
I needed a job that challenges and develops me but not to the extent that it
consumes me outside of the office. I got all of these in my new job. I’m
blessed.
On the flip side and a few steps away from being blessed, I've also learned not to underestimate people’s capacity for evil – especially in
the workplace. I thought I've seen it all but I was still shocked when I
encountered the mother of all evil. The arrogance, the superiority complex, the
pride in backyard industry thinking and practices in a global workplace. Bygones.
Good riddance.
We’re going to move
in to our first “home” in a few weeks.
Simple, quiet, peaceful
Christmas. Just the way we wanted it.
Simple, quiet,
peaceful New Year. With great food (that I didn’t have to cook!).
Visits from friends I
haven’t seen in a looong time.
Spent 15 calendar
days as full-time mom and homemaker. I loved every second of this period.
I am having a baby
___. I’m not allowed to share because the dad wants to be surprised.
I signed up in the My500 Words Challenge.
First entry. Tough. I wanted to have a blurb per bold
heading but I didn’t have enough time to write nor organize my thoughts. I need to cook in
a few, put TLO down for a nap and take a nap too before I prepare for work. But
I loved every second of this. Tomorrow may even be better. After this 30-day challenge, I want to do a re-run in the vernacular.
