From a disappointed visitor

This is in my mailbox, but not in the comments section. I guess the disappointed reader decided to delete?

"The next time I read a blog, I hope that it doesnt disappoint me as much as this one. I mean, I know it was my choice to read, but I actually thought youd have something interesting to say. All I hear is a bunch of whining about something that you could fix if you werent too busy looking for attention. "

Ok... see how much I care... Yeah. I don't.

Reinvention, climax at 2:15

Gagamgirl, ito yun. :D

Knowing what we know about The Great M, years of physical and emotional abuse in a series of unfortunate love stories made 2:15 a cosmic outburst, a profound marker of evolutionary celebration and lessons that took years to learn.

For all the women who have been pushed by their love and lovers, over the borderline. Congratulations if you're back to seeing your worth. If you're stuck, keep trying. Push back!

Word of Advice: Get In The Ring

You wanna antagonize me?
Antagonize me motherfucker!
Get in the ring motherfucker!
And I'll kick your bitchy little ass!
Punk
I don't like you, I just hate you
I'm gonna kick your ass, oh yeah!
Oh yeah!


Lovingly dedicated to people who have yet to see the dark side... this bitch spent 10 years in hell. You have been warned. Back off.

ShirtsByBilat #03

ShirtsByBilat #02

View more designs here - ShirtsByBilat#01

Bullshirts by YummyliciousLady #01

In junior high, I fell in love with the writings of Jun Cruz Reyes. In college, I found out from a friend that he was their Humanidades (Humanities) professor. I was done with this course at that time but I still I attended his class, almost everyday. Read:  "sit-in" forever. He was my mentor, in so many ways, despite the fact that he doesn't even know my name.

Anyways... one of the things that I learned, and worshiped, about Sir Jun is the fact that he designs his own shirts. Gusto ko rin yun. I never had the chance to pursue this dream but I have not given up on it... I want to design my own shirts, and maybe make a business out of it hehe!

So starting today, I'll be sharing "Shirts By Bilat." It's ok if any one of you, all five of you who read this blog (haha!), decides to use the design concepts. Just leave a comment and I'd be fulfilled.

Shirt templates are from these links:
White - http://www.blackboltshirts.com/wp-content/uploads/2012/02/11971486341068460998DigitaLink_Blank_T-Shirt_1.svg_.hi_.png
Black - http://www.uscotton.us/sitebuilder/images/T-shirt_outline_black-560x600.jpg

Here's the first one I ever made...

Sigh...

The Hubby will be out of the country for the next five days. He'll be back Saturday evening. He's been flying to Hongkong for the past 7 years or so but somehow, every single time is difficult. We've been practically together, everyday, since our college sophomore years.

Sometimes, I feel like my soul is no longer exclusively mine. It's been divided into three entities - mine, his and TLO's. I don't feel whole when either of them's not within reach. I feel their hunger, thirst, fear, anger, joy... well most of the time. Fox Mulder captured this in X-Files through a simple phrase... a nexus connecting the brains. I choose to view it as a gift - the beautiful miracle of "trinity." Yes, like the Holy Trinity if you're catholic. Psychologists may say it's empathy. Sociologists may dismiss it as group think.

I digress... I just miss you Dadda.

Heartbreak day in playschool

Today, adult companions were no longer allowed to enter the classroom. There were tears and lots of screaming from the students. Two kids threw up due to non-stop crying. Some moms turned into cantankerous bitches. There was non-stop talking about how kids are kids and will need their moms/dads inside the room.

I was just listening, missing my TLO. She's a brave little girl. She didn't cry at all. During recess, parents were allowed to supervise their kids while eating. She immediately went back to the "mat" area after consuming her cookies and chocolate drink. I had to stop her for a long embrace, some kisses and I love you, I'll miss you. She gave me a quick hug and just like that, she's gone.

I guess my heart got broken today too.





I cried buckets of tears when I watched this a few months before I found out I was pregnant with TLO. No more buckets, just ginormous gallons... 


"Schoolbag in hand, she leaves home in the early morning 
Waving goodbye with an absent-minded smile 
I watch her go with a surge of that well-known sadness 
And I have to sit down for a while 
The feeling that I'm losing her forever 
And without really entering her world 
I'm glad whenever I can share her laughter 
That funny little girl"


"Slipping through my fingers all the time 
I try to capture every minute 
The feeling in it 
Slipping through my fingers all the time 
Do I really see what's in her mind 
Each time I think I'm close to knowing 
She keeps on growing 
Slipping through my fingers all the time"

TLO's First Homework

Off to the mall for TLO's first homework. They were asked to bring the following tomorrow:

1. 2X2 pics (3 pcs)
2. Family pic
3. Kid's Apron

We're done with item1. Item 2 will need be printed today. Kid's apron is a big pain in the behind... fingers crossed!